This summer seems to celebrate the paternal parentage of my children. Craig moves in and out of the house during the day often for a family lunch or a brief hello after a meeting next door. The children follow him back to the office, returning with mail or lingering through a meeting. They have always been fascinated with his work. But it is Craig's absence during the day that highlights the pieces of him left behind.
Lise begins her sailing classes next week but her obsession began weeks ago when she received confirmation of her place in the camp. She found, in constructing a model sailboat, a way to assuage her eagerness for the camp to begin. Lise is Craig's daughter in the way she loves to put things together, to understand how and why pieces and parts work in unison. She seems to have learned from him the need to extract every available morsel from an interest in order to savor and elongate all associated experiences.
Rem moves through each day with such energy and exuberance that I sometimes grow exhausted from watching him. I imagine Craig to have exhibited similar displays as a child especially when similar bursts of passionate enthusiasm escape from his middle-aged self (so much more now than a year ago). Rem's overwhelming and complete adoration of his father draws groans from his sisters and even I get tired of sitting through Rem's declarations of love for Craig. But watching Rem concentrate on his latest Lego project (lately involving forts and fortresses for Red Coats) and then needing to share his excitement on completion ignites a desire for my own ardent declarations of love for father and son.
Miren, in a distinctly feminine way, (as she will want me to emphasize) physically resembles Craig much more than the other two (Lise, of course, being a mini-me and Rem a mix). The two of them started running in the evenings so that Miren will be in shape for soccer. They create a lovely picture, heading across the yard, the lines of their bodies mirroring each other in posture and stride. And after, sweating and patting each other on the back for a good run, their crinkled blue eyes dance in unison above happy smiles.
I enjoy seeking Craig and finding him in our children. I see myself in them, too, sometimes regrettably, but also joyously. My mother, eager to share her love for the written word, pressed a book into my hand long before I started school. She read Dickens aloud on summer evenings in the den while her children listened, limbs sprawled across furniture or along stretches of thick, brown carpet. We sat huddled around the fireplace during an odd winter spell while Mom spun Shakespeare dramas on the record player. I am my mother's daughter. A book, forever pressed into my hand, one work exchanged for another. And my children, their mother's children as they fill idle afternoons but mostly long nights turning pages. Reluctant to relinquish the day or leave a chapter unfinished, they read long past the clock's passing to tomorrow. An assortment of books sit scattered about the house: a Suzanne Collins series, young adult fiction from the library, Steinbeck, Chopin, Hemingway, E.B. White.